and yet... he always finds a way to make me cry..so i think did he ever really love me?... should i go on a break.. i love him... he is my entire life! i want to spend forever with him but i dont think he feels the same... i just dont get it

well i thought everything was fine between me and jon... but tonight he told me he didnt love me..the end

does anyone wanna come to prom with me?

hey guys!!  well my leg is doing a lot better and i can walk around on it and i think i may be able to go to work tomorrow ((saturday)) and me and kayla colored our hair again haha--same thing ya know cuz we gotta be twinnnsss!! well actually i wanted to color the underneath of my hair darker, and she wanted to too but i also got more highlights... we can both proudly say were almost Platinum blondes haha!! well the color i endedup doing underneath wasn't dark enough so we redid it yesterday its called plum.. well lets see... today Dommie picked me up for school and she came in and i colored her hair which was in MUCH need of coloring.. hehe sorry dom!!--but it looked really good when i was finished it was really blonde highlights mixed with a darker blonde highlight.. much better! then after that my foot was hurting so i sat down for a little while-then it was lunch time... me and aubrey decied it was a salad day.. and it was yummy yummy yummy!! then after lunch Betsy was supposed to come in around 1 at the latest and she didn't end up getter there till like 1:45... i didnt think i was gonna have enough time to do her updo but i ended up thanx to kay!! and it actually turned out really really good! well nothing much yet... jonathan picked me up after school today and stayed at my house for a little while watching general hospital and then left for work.-hopefully hes comming home tonight if you guys know what i mean hehe--its been a little while with my kidneys and foot-and im going to work tomorrow my doctor wrote that i couldnt go back untill saturday which sucks a lot becuase that means i didnt make any money at all this week! lol... and since my hair is sooooooooo damaged from all the new blonde i out in i think im gonna wear it curly for a little while... its sooo dry i sat with conditioner in it for an hour and a half yesterday and it did nothing! AHHH! oh well guys im gonna go.. ill talk to ya'll later!

Me and Kayla..* My twin!!!

*Done my cosmetology hours Friday!

*50 days till my graduation parttyyyy!

my world really is falling apart jons breaking up with me... he doesnt love me any mopre

i don't trust my boyfriend and he didn't even do anything

Hey!--well im kinda writing this one for aubrey--lets see what has happeneed to me while you were gone... well first the whole tonsil thing started and then last monday i went into the hospital with kidney stones and i was in pain till froday with that then friday i went to the dentist and i have a CAVETY!!((i cant spell haha))--well and then Sunday i was finishing up my senior project and i fell down the stairs lol and i sprained my ankle.... this is the first sprain i've ever had--every time i ever get hurt its always broken! haha so i guess thats a good thing except they said that a sprain is a lot of the time worse then a break becuase of all the muscles and stuff so im glad to announce that its not broken.. now for today...

the nurse is an asshole she made me wheel around ain a damn wheel chair all day hahah--- i went in there becuase my toes were hurting and they were really swollen and she was like omg you can't be on those crutches anymore and i was like no i dont and we argued for about 10 minutes and i lost! haha... well so i was embarressed all day and Ashley wheeled me around for half the day and i trusted her becuase shes a nursing student... and then Melissa got me! haha let me tell you that was fuN!-anndddd i had to present my senior project like that i felt stupid! haha... but i guess it was all okay in the end... well jons here i gotta go... we have a lot to catch up on aubreyy*! hope you had a fun cruise

*and Steph i Looooovvvee your haaaiirrr!!

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Me and diana's conversation! Funnyyy

dbellaitaliano06: you are a mess
XtRaQuTe18: i know... im falling apart! hahaha
XtRaQuTe18: omg it was sooo funny you missed me in a wheel chair the nurse wouldnt let me use my cruthces! hahaha
XtRaQuTe18: i fell down the stairs with a vacuum!
dbellaitaliano06: NO WAY
dbellaitaliano06: you are out of your mind
XtRaQuTe18: yeah i was running hahaha
XtRaQuTe18: i think i might be
dbellaitaliano06: you were running with the vacuum?
XtRaQuTe18: yes
XtRaQuTe18: i was mad at my mom for making me vacuum a room upstaris and i was trying to put it away fast --at first it hurt and i started crying.... but then i started cracking up because i didnt think anything else could possibly happen to me!
dbellaitaliano06: when you fell and hurt your ankel did she tell you that you prbably just had gas
XtRaQuTe18: hahahahahahaha----that actually made me lol
XtRaQuTe18: no she didnt lol
dbellaitaliano06: i would have made my mom go out and get me a fruit and yogurt parfait
XtRaQuTe18: HSHSHS
XtRaQuTe18: haha******
XtRaQuTe18: i cant type
dbellaitaliano06: HSHSHSHSHSHS..what the hell are you a snake
XtRaQuTe18: hahaha yessss!!
XtRaQuTe18: except if i was a snake theres no way i can brake my foot becuase i dont have any!
dbellaitaliano06: haa haa
dbellaitaliano06: so what you are is a freak
dbellaitaliano06: no(not so)
XtRaQuTe18: yes... a snake with legs
dbellaitaliano06: haaaaa haa

i didnt make these**

hey guys so im home again.. lets see last night i didnt do much i slept from about 4:00-8:00 then jon went to the works with clark and steve so i didnt see much of him untill later that night around 11:00. he slept over of coarse but then i had to leave in the morning to go to the dentist --i HATE the dentist.. but then again who doesnt. i was gonna go to school again but when i woke up i thoguht i was gonna die.. as usuall... i called the doctor and told him that i seemed to be getting worse but they just told me to drink extra fluids which i hate becuase im not a very thirsy person at all lol! i left kayla at school by herself today becuase aubrey is still on her cruise and Melissa didnt go today either haha i feel bad but my mom and grandmom freaked out and said i wasn't allowed to go becuase im on my drugs, and i cant drive there! i dont know. i got gas today for $2.07 which was Awesome... i think thats the only good thing that happened to me so far this week... well when i pulled up to the gas tank thinngy my gas tank was on the wrong side so i had to switch! and when i was at the dentist i found out i have a cavity! ahhhhhh!!im having a really bad week!.. oh well im guess im gonna go.. i realy dont even know why i write in this thing anymore becuase NOONE EVER COMMENTS ME!!

when i check back i wanna have at least 3 comments-->lets let Mandee have one good thing happen to her--Tell me how much you love me

What i made today*

*the banner at the top
 

Hey guys! so im freakin home suck again... i hate it i really do... i never ever thought id say this in my whole life but I MISS SCHOOL!-i got up this morning thinking everything would be fine and i would go to school as usual but after i got out of the shower but kidney started to hurt again! well sure enough i didnt make it to school becuase i took 2 perkocets-i went back to sleep for about 3 hours.. ((i just woke up)) and it still hurts... im a little goofy from the drugs but it still hurts! jons still sleeping.. and he went to bed before me last night which usually doesnt ever happen! haha im ALWAYS the first to fall asleep. well Fall Out Boy's concert is tonight and jon lost the tickets so that was the first sign that we were going and the second one is cuz i cant get better!!!! oh well-i guess im gonna go talk to yall later

heres some more icons i made!! im so excited i learned how

<--haha jon!!

   <-my favorite

 <--i didnt make these but Jonathan these are for you hehe i love you!

So guys! since ive been home ive been fooling around a lot on my computer becuase i have the time too! and im learning how to make icons!!!--- so if you guys want any just leave a comment and ill make it for you (might not be the best but i can try haha)

Example of what i made today!! yay for Mandee

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hey guys! so yesterday was very eventful--i started to get a pain in my stomach at around 9:00(pm) then it moved to my back and it was soooo bad i started crying and screaming.. i went upstairs and woke my mom up and she told me that i just had gas and that i had to go back to sleep--but i knew damn well that this was no effin gas like i'd ever felt before. so i didnt sleep all night i was freakin out all night because i had the worst pain in my back and bladder.. so finally my mom woke up and came into my room around 7:00 (am) and she asked me if it still hurt as i was laying on my bed crying histerically.. so my drs office didnt open till 9:00 (am) and i didnt have an appt. but my mom brought me there anyway and he took me right in after i peed in a cup which i might say was REALLY painful!! so by the time he took me in i was hurting so badly that i was crying again and right away he told me i had a kidney infection and that it might already be too late for him to do anything about it and that i might end up in the hospital. so he gave me a perscription and i went on my way back home. well as soon as i got home i had to pee and i was SCREAMING at the top of my lungs as i was doing so lol and i peed out a stone so my mom called the doctor and he said i had to go to the hospital right away so to make a long story short i had kidney stones and thats what was wrong with me... i couldnt go to new york today which is really sad!! and i was in the hospital all day yesterday- Everyone told me that kidney stones is the worst pain you can ever have so i lived through it after yelling at my mom on the way to the hospital telling her i was never ever having kids! haha-well im still hurting really bad today--the good news is no school for two days!! haha and perkocet so make me stop hurting--im gonna go sleep till jon gets here!!